1. |
No Rush
03:22
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I feel my body age in real time
I hear my muscles ache and heal slow
Something about it doesn’t yet feel right
The way you make it easy is real though
The things I used to hate get simpler
The ways I wanna love get sinful
I snap myself awake much quicker
You caught me by surprise and made it simple
No rush
I play my advantage when you blanche
Or blush
I’m not into planning
I’m out on the porch
Or I’m in on the landing
Wait and ruminate on the future
Put my stock in where you go
And all the strange ways to name a junior
Could I wanna slip past a duo
Missed the gate at seventeen like Granny
But I can man the ship as a stand in
Dad’s not mad about a half breed
But you can sit and think on a handprint
There’s no rush
No rush
No rush
No rush
We can fight the impulses
Not be a couple culprits
Beat back the compulsion
Find each other’s pulses
And find each other’s pulses
Find each other’s pulses
Find each other’s pulses
Make sure there’s no rush
I play my advantage when you blanche
Or blush
I’m not into planning
I’m out on the porch
Or I’m in on the landing
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2. |
Take Me Around
04:24
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You know all the places with a name
Recognition sets foot on my face
The ignition gets too hot
You cool me down with a new thought
What if I just stay?
You know all the ins and outs of alleys
Pull me up the mountains, down the valleys
Push me into continental drift
Nothing else will then move me more than this trip
What if I just stay?
What if I just stay?
Every one with you is a good day to
Think about the ways I can repay you
With the brightest lights and tallest buildings
Or the quiet cold where I’ve been living
What if I just stay?
What if I just stay?
What if I just stay?
What if I just stay?
Or you can come back where the leaves change color
If you like it just as much with me
Before you leave, change color
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3. |
What You're There For
03:07
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You said
“I think you know to some degree
Last November was kinda rough for me
And I think it shows that’s putting it lightly
But being in patient just isn’t really like me
But I gave up watching my own back
When I started watching yours
That’s what I’m there for
I used to be the solo kind
But that model of me was just a Phi Lambda Phi prototype
And you don’t take it out of me like a sore already does
I can handle when you’re not demanding to make you priority one
I ask before enacting and I err on the safer side
Or at least I try
You want a house, a dog, career, a car
It’s only scary it’s only hard
I want an ounce of calm, not a year apart
It’s never scared me, that’s never paused
I wanna tower guard, and a morning star
It’s terrifying to feel this hard
I would’ve stayed a vegetarian to honor the effect of our affection
I think you know with certainty
Being part of a partnership is kind tough for me
You know I need to get away when I can’t take it any more
you showed you’d care for me anywhere I know that’s what you’re there for
I catch red flags in a couple of months
But there were never any there for you
So I married you”
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4. |
Proximity
02:51
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You get undone by proximity too many times
You stop wanting to get too close
So it’s all fun what you’re sending me so many nights
Risk flickering into ghost
But all of those friends that you made back at home
Have got nothing in common with you
When you get the choice you make better ones all on your own
Share more than a middle school
There’s nothing you can do from a thousand miles away
That someone closer can’t do just as well as you
There’s nothing you can do to beat proximity
The bitter sweet loves that you had to water down
Are still potent when you drink
And if you taste, what it leaves in your mouth
Is stronger than you think
And though you claim your status never changed
You both know how far you were away
And there’s nothing you can’t do from a half a foot away
That someone further doesn’t wish they had the chance to
And there’s nothing you can do that beats proximity
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5. |
Top Right Corner
02:43
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I’m trying to keep my eyes unfocused
On the things I wish I could ignore
Like I’m patient waiting at a party I’m hosting
And my eyes start darting over to the door
I don’t wanna make all the parts a target
Just because the arrow points on the dot
The number on the bell could be marked by a something you hearted
But most of the time I’m unsurprised when I’m finding it’s not
‘Cause every little pop up in the top right corner is you
Every install update notification is your name breaking through
You’re every single ding of the cellphone ring, it’s true
But nobody ever knows that their messages composed are confused for you
And if it ever is, it’s weird, it’s like a fist in the gut
Feel I should be happy but the sappy turned it saccharine sweet
Panic is the byproduct of wanting something too much
Hit me on the answer machine if I’m gonna be obsolete
‘Cause every little pop up in the top right corner is you
Every install update notification is your name breaking through
You’re every single ding of the cellphone ring, it’s true
But nobody ever knows that their messages composed are confused for you
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6. |
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If my status changes
Don’t blame me if it’s complicated
I may not know it but I hate it
If I’m afraid of changing
‘Cause I built my life this way then
A landslide better come bring me down
Confusion, Tacoma
I’ll be moving there before it’s over
There’ll be signs, symptoms
Issues with my wishes
And some things that aren’t quite sticking
And there’s friction
Between non- and fiction
And if it seems like something’s missing bring me down
Confusion, Tacoma
I’ll be moving there before it’s over
Confusion, Tacoma
I’ll be moving there before it’s over
When I’m saying nothing
But I’m failing no one
That’s something you can trust in
Let this be your discussion
Love me, I’ll be missing someone
That’s something, bring me down
When I’m finally crying
And my mind is trying
But it’s silent
And you’re by my side
And trying to be kind
But I get violent, pull me down
Confusion, Tacoma
I’ll be moving there before it’s over
Confusion, Tacoma
I’ll be moving there before it’s over
Confusion, Tacoma
I’ll be moving there before it’s over
(I need you to love me)
If my status changes
(I need you to know me)
Don’t blame me
(I need you to hear me)
if it’s complicated, I
(Still I need you with me)
(I need you to love me)
If my status changes
(I need you to know me)
Don’t blame me
(I need you to hear me)
if it’s complicated, I
(Still I need you with me)
(I need you to love me)
If my status changes
(I need you to know me)
Don’t blame me
(I need you to hear me)
if it’s complicated, I
(Still I need you with me)
(I need you to love me)
If my status changes
(I need you to know me)
Don’t blame me
(I need you to hear me)
if it’s complicated, I
(Still I need you with me)
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7. |
Use Me Like You Used To
03:02
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There is no anger, there is no hate
That’s the hardest part of the change
If there was fuel, if there was fire
There’d be something put out, there’d be something try
But sometimes it’s going
And then it just goes
And sometimes you notice
And sometimes you don’t
‘Cause you don’t even use me like you used to
And that’s how I know
If I was a fool and I confused you
It had to show
But you don’t have to see me if you don’t need me
That’s how it goes
But you don’t even use me like you used to
And now I know
And we coulda talked, we coulda fixed it
Instead of robbing the court of a witness
We could be civil if not the same
And I’ll take the fault if I am to blame
But sometimes it’s going
And then it just goes
And sometimes you notice
Sometimes you don’t
‘Cause you don’t even use me like you used to
And that’s how I know
If I was a fool and I confused you
It had to show
But you don’t have to see me if you don’t need me
That’s how it goes
But you don’t even use me like you used to
And now I know
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8. |
Measure
03:46
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You brought me out to you one time
You’ve brought me so much since then
I know it’s not that you fix me
I’m just excited to love my best friend
In San Diego when you kissed me
I started flying then and there
There were too many people watching
But it was the one time I didn’t care
I try to think about a single moment
But all that comes to me is when you’re holding
Me close and my hand and me together
But one time is not enough to measure
Why I want you
You feed me fries when I’m driving
You maximize the time we have
I want to keep you my co-pilot
Not fantasize about the past
It doesn’t matter when I met you
I think time reset when I did
And right then I must have picked a clover
Closed my eyes and made a wish
I try to think about a single moment
But all that comes to me is when you’re holding
Me close and my hand and me together
But one time is not enough to measure
Why I want you
And we could have a February in the snow
But you want to spend the dog days on the beach
Every time I think there’s somewhere we can’t go
You prove to me that nothing’s out of reach
And I try to pin down what is that makes you mean so much to me
But it’s not a point, a moment or solitary something you can see
I try to think about a single moment
But all that comes to me is when you’re holding
Me close and my hand
And me close and my hand
And me close and my hand and me together
But one time is not enough to measure
Why I want you
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9. |
Nearly Neighbors
01:25
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I can see your house from here
Without ever really knowing it
You can overhaul a mindset
Without ever fully showing it
I found out when I explored
And I ended up outside your door
I walked so many miles that day
Less than a tenth of one from mine to yours
I passed by that car I knew
Front seats that once held me and you
That’s as close as we would ever be
And nothing more we wanted, too
I fear there was convincing
Or something was misunderstood
It felt like I was rinsing
Off something that was stained for good
I don’t wanna lose a best friend again
You know I could make it work if you wanted to make it work
By the time I’m done singing I’d be at your front door
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10. |
Despite Concrete
04:09
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Look where you’re planted. Did they know you’d be essential?
Look where you rise up even with the odds against you
A force in the morning bringing up the people with you
with the work that you put in caring for and bearing of fruits
They will grow, despite concrete
They will grow, despite concrete
You pushed on the pavement, singing songs and talking to screens;
you rise through the ceiling like hot air if the basement had heat
You lift from the mattress: singular and worn out and shared
You still put a pin up in a cork board of goals and your hair
You will grow, despite concrete
You will grow, despite concrete
You’ve been beaten backwards by lovers and teachers and luck
had branches clipped off, felt so insurmountably stuck
Chronic conditions: biological or product of fate
it makes you feel so small when you’re growing whole years in a day
Still you grow, despite concrete
Still you grow, despite concrete
When babies are blossomed they sag you far down with their weight
and fathers are far off or tired from their work the next day
But you don’t get time off when standing up is work in itself
You’ve never been helpless, you just weren’t given the help
But you grow, despite concrete
But you grow, despite concrete
I see in the future when I’m standing up under your shade
the wind that can knock me down only ever gets you to sway
I say what you taught me when you thought of and bought me the book about a house on a street
I say it for who grew despite concrete
Despite concrete
I will grow, despite concrete
I will grow, despite concrete
I will grow, despite concrete
I will grow, despite concrete
I will grow, despite concrete
I will grow, despite concrete
I will grow, despite concrete
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